New Year, Not A New “Me”

Last year was quite the year. As it is the beginning of January, New Years Resolutions are in a full swing. People are hitting up the gym everyday, still dieting after a solid two weeks, staying true to daily devotionals, exc. Some peoples resolutions have already ended (like me who was going stop drinking coke….lol)

Although it is a new year, I am not trying to change my ways just because it is January 1st. Why not change them on December 30th? I feel that if something is important to you, why not take immediate action instead of using the excuse of “its my new years resolution” to wait a few extra days.

Back in November, I turned my life over completely to Christ. Since then, I have grown tremendously through his Word. I still do my daily devotionals. I have my quiet time.  At church the week before the New Year, they mentioned to up your game. As of now, I have quiet time every other day or so. Sometimes I forget, but I try to make it a point to do it at least every other day. There is no better way to grow with the Lord than being engulfed in His Word.

Now, don’t get me wrong. I think New Years Resolutions are great. But if you break the resolution after a month, don’t give up. Get back on it the next day. We all falter from our goals every now and again, and none of us are perfect. But we all have room for improvement.

My improvements are going to be to stay on my top game with my quiet time. I am going to try to do about five times a week instead of the maybe three that I get in now. Just remember: if you stray away from your faith, or if you make a mistake it is all going to be okay in the eyes of Him.

1 John 1:9 – If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us [our] sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

Thanks for reading, and have a fabulous beginning to the year!

To All of my Prayer Warriors

To all of my prayer warriors out there: I have a prayer request.

These past few months have been really hard on my family. In October, we found out that two of my very close family members have cancer. One is my cousin whom is only 15 and has been diagnosed leukemia, and the other is Nina who has breast cancer. Trying to stay positive, they caught both of them in very early stages. My cousin is at an awesome cancer hospital in NC, so I have faith that he will be healed. By the grace of God, they told Nina that she would not need chemotherapy after her surgery. Today, that changed. I got a text from my mom while at work that she would, in fact, have to take chemo and radiation to make sure it doesn’t spread any more than it already did. Also, my mother had to go into surgery today for her back. She will be in recovery and can not make it for my wisdom teeth surgery, or to be with my grandmother during this hard time.

I am not the type to put this out in the public, but I feel like God has been working on my heart lately. One thing that I have learned is that it is okay to ask for help. You can not do everything on your own. You will eventually break down and not know where to turn. So today, I am telling you guys this just to ask you to pray for my family. Strength for us all to find that light at the end of the tunnel. Hope that things will soon look up. And to give us the faith knowing that this is all apart of God’s master plan in our lives here on Earth. It’s hard to wonder how any good can come from these terrible events, but knowing that God is always there to hold your hand along the way really helps the heartache.

Today while on break at work I was just looking for scripture about strength, and I wanted to share what I found.

“My flesh and my heart my fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.” Psalm 73:26

Metamorphosis

December marks one year since I have moved to Fayetteville. In the past year, I have changed significantly. That meaning my spiritual life, my independence, and the people I surround myself with.

Arkansas Tech was phenomenal to me. I joined the best sisterhood I could have asked for, Zeta Tau Alpha. With that, I met my very best friends. Most of which I am still very close to today. I was on Student Government Association as a Senator-At-Large, and I was a Resident Assistant at South Hall. I had all of these things going for me, but I was in a rut. I was in bed all of the time sitting in the dark. I cried at the drop of a hat. I never wanted to go anywhere, not even initiation for my most precious little. I just remember crying in the back room with my Big telling her how I was just miserable. I knew then that something had to change.

Moving to Fayetteville was a shock to everyone, including myself, but mainly my mother. I decided last October that I was going to finally make the move that I had always wanted to do. Going against my families wishes, I applied to the U of A, found an apartment with roommates, found a job, and got all of my classes switched over from ATU. The day after Christmas it really all happened. I had help loading up my car, and then drove to Fayetteville by myself to move into my apartment.

I knew moving was not going to be an easy task. I told my parents that when I went, I was going to learn how to become financially independent (except for gas and insurance). And even without those two things, it was hard, but I did it. I set my mind to it, worked hard at my job and got a promotion. I paid my bills on time. I still struggle with one main thing: saving. That one needs some practice.

My first semester of college up here was rough. I told everyone it was great, but it was not all that and a can of beans. I was alone all of the time. I only knew two people up here at the time, and I thought I was just going to be lonely all of the time. I lived with three girls who were all in sororities at the time, so they were constantly going to mixers, having people over, exc. And I felt like that weird roommate that was a loner (which was probably true).

I finally started going out more and meeting more people. But with me going out more means me drinking more, and participating in behavior that just wasn’t like me. At the end of last semester I started getting back into my devotionals and that is when it all seemed to take a turn for the better.

This semester, I have new roommates who push me to become a better version of myself. I have gotten more involved in my relationship with Christ, and I actually want to be a shining light on others. About three weeks ago, I surrendered my life to Christ. There has been temptations since then to fall back into my old habits, but with an amazing roommate and an awesome support system, it isn’t as easy to get sucked back in.

The people at Cross Church are seriously incredible. They know you by name and genuinely want to gain a relationship with you and help you grow with Christ. That is one of the main things that draws me back to them each coming week. I feel at home when I am there. I feel that all of the people surrounding me love me, even if I have never seen them before. And that is a feeling I haven’t gotten anywhere else.

So in the past year I have..

  1. Gained incredible friends
  2. Made a real connection with Christ
  3. Let God make me a better person
  4. Learned my way around Fayetteville
  5. Found a church home
  6. Gotten used to the HUGE class sizes
  7. Learned how to be financially independent
  8. Kept a steady job for a year
  9. Gotten over broken hearts
  10. Memorized the U of A campus (it was tricky)
  11. But most importantly, I have found that my one true love is Christ.

C3 works on my heart every Wednesday. And tonight was just the same. It is now time to step up my God Game and to make Him my Lord and Savior. Lord of everything in my life. He has control, and He will provide if you trust in Him.

All In.

Seven years old at my childhood churches bible school, I was saved. I heard that if I didn’t I would go to hell. So the only logical thing to do was say that little prayer and become right with God. So I did. I said that prayer with the pastor at the front, and my family praised me. But that was it. At seven years old you aren’t really exposed to this sinful world, nor do you really do much wrong yourself.


Fast forward to 8th grade. I was at a church revival and oh my was I moved. I decided to rededicate my life to Christ. Again, I went to the front, cried, said that little prayer, and I was saved again. I almost immediately went to the back with a woman and tried to figure out when I wanted to be baptized. But still then, nothing changed.


This past week, Kyla and I decided we wanted to go to C3 this Wednesday. Little did we know that we were covering Depression and Anxiety. The first thing that really grasped my attention was this quote during a testimony. “If you are 99% sure you’re saved, you are 100% lost.” Then in the sermon, Pastor Noe said “The best way to know if you in a good relationship, is to know if you’re actually in one.” Wow. I have never felt that empowered to do something about my salvation in a long time. I was tired of going trough the motions. People always talk about their “ah ha” moment and I have always just pushed it to the side saying that everyones testimony is different. But then I realized, nothing in my life had changed so I didn’t really have a testimony.

Pastor Noe Garcia asked us to bow our heads to pray. While everyones heads were bowed, he asked us to raise our hand if you were unsure about your salvation. I sat there for a minute wondering if I should raise my hand. I knew that I was unsure, but raising your hand is a big step. So, trembling, I did. Then he asked us all to look up at him if we raised our hand. When that happened, Kyla and I both looked up. How awesome is it that my roommate and I get to go through this journey together! He looked each one of us in the eye and asked if we loved Jesus. I just could not stop smiling. When I answered, tears filled my eyes. Then, the unthinkable happened. He asked us if we would come up to the front. A group of about 8-10 college students came up front, before God, to fix our salvation.

We each went to the back with a specific person, and they just kind of talked to us about it. Why we did it, and things like that. I came out and told my girl, Patience, everything. Things that I have only told my roommate. When you are in the ruts of life, the only real answer is prayer.  After I told her why I wanted a relationship with Christ, and asked me to pray about baptism. She said just to let me and God figure it out, but to have that heavy on my heart. I have never had someone tell me that baptism is between me and God and for me to pray about it. Its always been just a scheduling thing as soon as you’re done with your prayer.

Last night, November 19th, 2014, I completely surrendered my life to Christ. I was so overjoyed. I could not go to sleep. My mind was racing. So I just started to read my bible. I had always heard Revelation was good, so I started that one and fell asleep with the Word in my hands.

I just want you all to know that it is never to late to get back on the right track with your relationship with God. I am all in. Giving him my life. Walking in His name. And this is my third try, my best try, and there is no looking back from here.

Now here is to a new life, with my new faith. I cant wait to see whats in store for me.

“Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound. That saved a wretch like me.”

Pimpin’ In My Poncho

Ya’ll…I got in this adorable poncho the other day and I just could not wait to wear it! I got it from a shop here in Fayetteville called Belle Boutique. They are very affordable, and this poncho totally gets an A++ from me. Yeah thats right, two pluses.

Also, Forever 21 has beanies for only $2.80! You seriously can not find a better deal than that!

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Hat: here// Poncho: Sold out but this website// Bracelet from RiffRaff// Piko: Here// Boots: here// Denim: here

Only one more day until the weekend! Hang in there!

Some Say Fire, Some Say Ice

……And today, I am saying ice! If you arent sure what I am referencing here, please read “Fire and Ice” by Robert Frost (it is very short I swear).

Yesterday in Fayetteville people were wearing shorts. Today, we are decked in our snow gear. Scarves, hats, boots, coats, exc. You name it, we are probably wearing it! The crazier thing? This weekend is the biggest rival game that the Hogs will play (against LSU) and it is supposed to snow. Yep. You read that right…snow. A high of 32, with snow. The game is also at 7pm. So it will most likely be in the twenties. I really do love this because it means I get to do the unthinkable and not wear a dress a heels to the ball game (its a southern thing).

Since it was freezing today, I decided to go with super comfy, oversized, thick, and warm. I got this adorable cardigan and scarf from my hometown boutique called “Hollyhocks”. They are extremely affordable, and arent these so cute?! Also, these boots are to die for. I am obsessed. I got them last winter and they still look great! They also go amazing with almost any style, and they are very comfortable.

You can find my boots here in Bordeux!

I am also at Starbucks for the second time today….. No shame in my coffee game.

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I also went to Chuys today, and got a HUGE burrito….Twas bueno.

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Hope you guys have had a great Tuesday!

I’m Waving my White Flag

With this blog, I did not want it to just be all glitz, glamour, and outfits. (Although that will most likely be the majority of it). I also want to be able to share my life with you all. One thing that is a major part of my life is my faith.

Last night during church, I absolutely loved the message. We are beginning our Christmas series called “Oh, come let us adore Him”.  This is only the second week of the series, so we are just getting into when Jesus was being conceived. If you don’t know the story, let me sum it up for you really fast so you will understand what I am getting at:

The Birth of John the Baptist: There was a priest named Zechariah that was married to Elizabeth. They were childless because Elizabeth was unable to conceive and they were both very old in age. One day Gabriel (the angel of the Lord) came to Zechariah and said to him “Do not be afraid, your prayer has been heard. Your wife, Elizabeth will bear your son, and you are to call him John (John the Baptist)”-Luke 1:13 Zechariah then questioned Gabriel and asked how he could be sure of this. Zechariah was then silenced until the birth of his son, John, for not believing Gabriel. Elizabeth became pregnant.

Okay, so fast forward now to the next part of the story:

The Birth of Jesus: In the 6th month of Elizabeths pregnancy, God sent Gabriel to Galilee to the virgin Mary. Gabriel told her that she had found a favor with God and she would conceive and give birth to a son who she will call Jesus. Mary asked how it could be since she was a virgin, and Gabriel said to her “The Holy Spirit will come on you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you. So the holy one to be born will be called “the Son of God”. Then he proceeded to tell her how her relative Elizabeth was having a child in her old age. Mary replied with “I am the Lord’s servant. May your word to me be fulfilled.”- Luke 1:38

This is what I have been struggling with lately, and I don’t think I am the only one.

Mary, whom they think was about 13-16 years old, was about to have her life turned upside down and all around, and she was willing to do so in order to fulfill the wishes and commands of God. I struggle with this on a daily basis. It is very hard for me to just say to myself “Okay, you know what God, you’ve called me to do this, and so no matter what.. I am doing it.” I am always selfish of how it will effect me and my family. Did Jesus think of himself when he died upon the cross? No. Did Mary think of herself when she was about to have everyone turn against her? No. So why should I be selfish and put my needs and my wants above what God wants for me.

It is not always easy to put God #1 in your life. You have peer pressure, alcohol, drugs, obscene television shows, exc. just pulling you away slowly from the Word. So as I say again, no, it may not be easy but Luke 1:37 says “For no words from God ever fail”. 

In church we talked about what we needed to just surrender in life to God. Whether it be our entire life if we haven’t done so yet, or something like using all of your musical abilities in the church if that has been a calling of yours. Paster Nick Floyd made the comparison to just picking up your white flag and waving it to God. Completely surrendering to him. That is my challenge to myself and to all of you believers out there as well:

Pick up that white flag and surrender, because nothing is impossible with God. 

Hope you guys have had an awesome Monday! Until next time, loves. IMG_4176